The hard*ss part was said kind of tongue in cheek. I am totally at peace with my choices. I just need to realize that we all have to find our own path. It is so hard to see parents of addicts where I was a couple of years ago. I want to shake them and say let go, let go, there is a better way. I know I can't do that so I just share my experience and hope that they can learn without having to go through the extreme pain that I did. But yet it is really good for me to read the newcomers because it shows me that I never want to go back to that time in my life and the only way to not go back is to go forward. Hugs, Marle (And I still love my daughter every bit as much as I ever did.)