you read minds beth...?
read mine...rhymes with 'greeting'
I have no answers for any of your living arrangement job or finance problems, B - what I do know is that wallowing, getting sad, getting angry or doing nothing is gonna lead you up a dark dark alley - cos you'll tend to go back to what you know - we all do - until you learn something different.
At least a meeting is something positive you know ?
when you're seriously thinking of bars or crack or even casually talking self harm (common thread really hey ?)....it's time to try some things you haven't really tried yet.
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