I've been told that you hit bottom once you quit digging. Bottom is still bottom no matter how far down you go. I happen to be a lower bottom than some, but I think the best thing I did was surrender where I was, because no matter how far down you go, it can always get worse. Hey I nursed resentments against people because I was jealous they "figured the program out" easier than I did I had to go back out and try some controlled drinking unsuccessfully for about 8 years before I even put together these last nine months of sobriety. As far as resentments, nobody likes being in a class of drinkers, let alone categorized and insulted by others. But in the beginning we agreed that we would go to any lengths to gain victory over alcohol and if I have to endure a little ribbing from others, that is better than going back out and possibly dying or worse living in an alcoholic lifestyle. I think the pros outweigh the cons in aa. They have made me feel a part of rather than the black sheep of --. I no longer feel unique and alone. And that is worth everything to me.