Hi Gravity,
Only advice I can offer is to echo tanyapmc and nandm, talk to your sponsor about it. It is very possible you are reading more into a simple remark than he ever intended but you won't know if you don't ask.
I was lucky. I got off the elevator before I lost everything. Sometimes when I am sitting at tables, I get the feeling that there is a secret fellowship within the fellowship that I will never belong to because I didn't lose everything. On the other hand, sometimes when I share the details of what it was like for me at the end, I get the feeling that other people at the table are looking at me and thinking "Jeez, this character is really an alcoholic, glad I never let it get that bad."
Bottom line is that how ever bad it was we stopped is bad enough. It's good to keep the 4th promise in mind: "No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others."