Susan, When you come here and tell your story be it good or bad news, the rest of us learn from you. I know that we still must make our own decisions and mistakes, but it makes it easier knowing that we are not alone in those decisions or those mistakes. You will get stronger. Your life has so much meaning no matter what Kasey does. I know there have been times when I have felt like "what is the use" and then someone will message me with a thank-you and tell me that I have helped them and it makes me feel so much better knowing that my pain has helped someone to feel just a bit better. You have done that for people here too, don't forget that. Hugs, Marle