Susan, Even if you don't feel like posting, please continue to come here and read. I have found that even in my darkest days, there is always something here that I need to read. It has always helped me. Prayers for Kasey. She does not want to die, she just is not ready to give up the drugs yet. Maybe more that she needs to learn. Prayers for you too. I know the feeling of just wanting to die. Been there. Hugs, Marle