I wish I could make you realise there is nothing to feel ashamed or embarrassed about, Barb.
Other peoples opinions do not even come into it, and whipping yourself is likely to make you want to drink to drown your sorrows.
I DO understand you feeling down, though.
I think Nand has some good ideas, try different meetings and maybe a different sponsor too. AA isnt there to judge you, it is there for you to USE for YOU.
I know you were feeling healthier and happier sober, be kind to yourself and get sober again-SOON.
