my heart breaks for your family. how you must all have loved him. there is much good you can do in this world in his honor and memory....just remembering his gentleness and carrying that on will keep him with you. but that is for the future. for now, i am so sorry for your devastation. do what you can to support your heart through this, and reach for love. he sounds like such a good soul. he would want you to find comfort and peace. just reach for love.