(((Chi)))
Although I didn't go into treatment, this is a lot like how I felt when I finally decided that I wanted recovery more than anything else. Of course, I'm impatient (am having to work on that), but I was SOOOO ready to just get my life back without dope. Now, I've got almost 10 months clean. I've struggled some (those darn financial consequences!) and everything hasn't been wonderful, but it is still a heckuva lot better than it ever was on dope. These days, instead of kicking myself for what I did back then, I try to remember to be grateful that I got another chance.
I really do think that 2008 is going to be your year. It's really great to hear you sounding so positive. You can always pm me...I fought the same demon you're fighting. I know, for me, it always helps to come here and find out I'm not alone with my thinking, and someone else has done the same things I did and they're clean today.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy