Farmgirl
They will welcome you with open arms. They have all been where you are and are there to share their experience, strength and hope. Just like we welcome you here. When you go to a meeting, you can participate as little or as much as you are comfortable with. My first four meetings I just sat and cried...couldn't even share why. And the love and support I felt there was so comforting. I found the best sponsor (I call her my she-devil sponsor with a heart of gold) and she helped me work the steps and grope my way to recovery.
Go as a gift to yourself - you deserve it.
Hugs