I will keep you in my prayers and Kasey too. I remember how totally at the end of my rope I was when Megan last relapsed. As heartbreaking as active addiction is, at least you know what you are up against. Having some clean time and relapsing is so very hard to deal with. The only thing that worked for me was to go back to square one and admit I was powerless. I had to work my way back up, but the lesson that I learned was I will never give my trust away so easily to my daughter again. Or my hard fought recovery either. You need to rage and vent and feel badly if that is what it will take for you to feel better. It is okay. Hugs, Marle