Thanks for all the great posts. I can definitely relate.
I think the recovery is a process of brining my will into conformity with God's will for me.
I agree that often it is not easy to know what God's will is for me, and that in those situations and need to pray and pay attention to what I am feeling in my gut.
I also agree that when I am in synch with God's will that everything just falls into place--life flows, but when I am out of synch with God's will life is a struggle.