Dr Zips Nightmare!
i'm right there with taz...
a life'r...
started at the age of 13, drank to the abys til age 48!
did the House Cow Bit! (coming out of withdrawls)
day one... woe, i was a train wreck!
i had a close friend stay with me, because, i knew i could die trying to do this...
if i get too bad, call 911
question, what is too bad?
i told her more then once, dont call, i'll be ok... (so alcoholic)
everything i had herd, and read about the DT's... TRUE!!!
i started to shake, rattle and roll uncontrolabily... like nother ever before...
i was in and out of convulsions...
the sweats, the chills, hot, cold, hot, cold...
felt like bugs were crawling on me...
i was hearing voices, and all kings of ringing, and odd sounds...
hallucinations of what, i dont remember the images, just know they were there!
i felt like a crane was on my chest... heart'o racing...
anxiety, ppfftt... over the top!
and the real crowd pleaser...
that dreaded feeling of never ending empending doom...
day two, more of the same, i really didnt eat, did start drinking tons of water tho...
day three, a little bit better... ate little bits here and there.. and no crap...
started taking loads of vitamins...
and started doing pushups and situps to help relieve the anxiety...
day four, was almost like going back to day one again... then it slowly eased up...
day five, i started to get back some emotions... i was able to laugh, and i also cried...
i cried, because i never belived i would be able to make it through one day without a drink ever in the rest of my life...
day six... a emotional roller coaster...
now what do i do?
well, i hit the rooms of A.A.
and followed directions...
i prayed for just one day of being able to not drink, and now coming up on five years...
the drink wasnt my problem.. the problem was me!
i do til this day, believe my detox, doing it myway has helped in a huge way, to keep me from ever going back to that nightmare...
and of course, i get by with a little help from my friends...
my clean and sober friends...
and my power that be!
love, blessings, and give only love... cuz it cant be taught!
rz
ps, i'm stil shake'n the hardtimes loose!