(((Hopeangel))) WhenI have trouble standing up for myself, I sometimes form a picture in my head of me as a small girl. The one I am thinking of, I am not quite 5 years old, and it is my kindergarten picture. I thought we were getting shots behind the screen, and so I started crying.... I had absolutely NO trust of any of the adults that first tried to comfort me, then discounted me as being a baby when I wouldn't stop crying.
That little girl needs my love. That little girl deserves my protection. That little girl is afraid and needs to be comforted.
I am a big girl, now. I can protect her. I can provide her a safe environment and give her comfort.
You might try that sort of visualization and then imagine that HER safety is in balance against.... some material thing?
((((hugs))))
Praying you get out safe this weekend.