Susan,
I feel that way all of the time. I wish I could feel more confident but I don't. It is so hard for me to accept when she is being really nice. Sometimes I think is she being exceptionally nice because something is up. I'm right there with you girl.
I think we have lived with the disappointment for so long that it is hard to let it go.
Does that make sense?
Keeping you and Kasey in my daily thoughts.............Lo