((((((BonBon))))))
I have missed you and the dancing elephants...
You didn't say love in your post and I am glad you didn't...I believe it takes time to really love someone, more than afew months anyway...
You do sound like you do love living the the life you have made for yourself today. You should be very proud of that....just a few thoughts to send your way..
One: Love is an Action word....
Two: I don't want anyone in my life today because they NEED me, NOR do I want anyone in my life today because I NEED them... The perfect relationship to me today is one where I can just "JOY" in that person's presentence(sp).
THREE: Trust is earned.....It is not a given in my life today...
To me it sounds like you don't really trust this man...
RUN FOR THE HILLS.
Love and prayers from one who cares.