I hear ya!
Kglast,
I feel the EXACT same way. I have been with my AH husband for almost 11 years. He has been in rehab 13 months out of the last 4 years...and has not been sober for more then a week at a time. He has so much going for him it is just so sad. Things seem to only get worse though and nothing changes for the better. After reading several posts here I know what I have to do and have taken a job 1500 miles away. I leave in one week. He is so depressed about me leaving that the drinking is worse and daily...I even had to call the cops 2 weeks ago because I thought he OD (it was just a huge amount of hard alcohol over a very short time). I feel bad for him but can't continue to live like this. I long for a "normal" life, one without the chaos and drama. I put off having children (which now I am so thankful for) but am not getting any younger. Bottom line...this disease SUCKS!!