Thanks so much. You know i never would have thought to come to a site like this. I actually did it for him, he said i would never understand what he was going through so i thought i would talk to people who could help me.
He blams me but then he'll be really sweet and say i want to get better for you and i'm sorry for everything. Anyway he's coming over today and i know it's a stupid move. I should read the adults of alcoholic parents page, my father god love him, never went to anything when i was a child, not a concert, confirmation at church not even my high school graduation and i crave attention and love from men, and i say it out loud and it sounds horrible, i almost feel stupid saying it. Anyway thanks again. You guys are all so helpful. I'm so glad i found this site.