nope...10 years ment nothing in my nighborhood either.
I just couldn't understand it. It's a bit bewildering.
It's not becuase I wasn't trying or cared.
probably becuse I was trying and caring to damn much.
I felt bad, i really did. Been bewildered many times before.
it helps to read other stories..becuase it was touch and go
and I felt so stupid and bewildered. Recognizing i was bewielder
was a start. i accepted it. it gave me a starting piont...again.
Dig myself out of the hole again...I guess.
Dosn't matter who's fault it is anymore..I was in the hole
and the only person that was going make his way out of there
was me.
I had to start the grieving and letting go process again.
The difference or whats getting me well or better a liitle bit
at a time everyday is no contacts. My mind would wonder
and worry about her all the time at first, but the no contacts
and the focus shifting to myself more, and more everyday is
helping.
I just hope i don't get well enough to go out and do it again.
I'm more awear of my reactions or certain traits. I'm not at , I
hate all women stage. I'm at , i don't belive i can ever get
into a relationship again. it's not a bad place to be.
Nothing is set in stone. it's just where I'm at today.
I'm living without her..so i guess that's progress.
I hope you get well soon.