We have every cause to be angry. I use to not be very emotional. Then with progress MAD was my only emotional response. I often have to work through that before I can get beyond it. Mad feels better to me than sadness. I am sad when I think abouta the loss of relationship, loss of potential, loss of the person I thought my child would become, etc. Before my son bec an addict I never felt anger or sadness then POW. He's now 23 and I have learned to detach but it took practice and time. All that pain forced me to make some emotional growth and for that I am thankful. Your AD journey through addiction may last for yrs. Take care of yourself so that two lives aren't destroyed.