me too
Jwife, I went through the EXACT same thing! And I'm so glad you posted because I felt like the most selfish person on earth.
My first trick-or-treater came to the door - an adorable little blonde girl dressed as a wizard. She looked so cute - my heart melted. Thankfully, I made it through a conversation with her mother, but as I closed the door, tears welled up in my eyes and my situation never seemed so bleak.
I want nothing more than to have a family, but recently divorcing my now EXAH didn't bring me any closer to that wish. So I hear ya, girl! But be thankful that your RAH is willing to work on his recovery. Mine wasn't, so I'm at square one.