Thanks for your kind words. I do consider myself a healthy individual and therefor knew when it was time to get out, as painful as it was. I filed for divorce and it will be legal in a month or so. I go to a social worker who deals with Alcoholism and has shed some light on the disease for me. I have never gone to Al-Anon so this is the first time I am connecting to people with whom I can relate. I know I had no control over his actions. It is just so hard to accept that this kind, gentle, man has turned into a cold and distant person. It is also beyond comprehension that drugs are accessible in jail! They actually have to take drug tests (which is how Im guessing he landed himself in maximum security). I suppose I just need to hear from people that share my feelings, pain, and experiences.