Thx, for all of your understanding and support. I know from past experience how great everyone here is so turned to you guys first.
However, I just don't think I have it in me to deal with this again. I guess that's my real fear. It was soooo hard for almost 2 yrs and to think we are back to square one is probably the most depressing thing I can imagine. Yesteday, I just wanted to scream at the top of my lungs...today I don't even want to get out bed. Probably won't.
As for others "wishing" this would happen...I don't care anymore. We're all human with jealousies and insecurities and it's totally ridiculous to blame this on others "wishes"..... no blame anywhere. Except maybe on AS.
I always try to find at least one positive in even the worst situations. The only thing I can find here is maybe with him being here a month, I can get him financially responsible....almost a tougher job than keeping him clean. Best positive I could think of.
Back to under the covers in a fetal position!
Love, B