Welcome Beatnik
There's a list of alternatives to AA in a sticky at the top of the Secular Forum - you'll find it here -
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...cular-web.html
If you don't like the AA approach try something else. There's lots around. Just be aware that denial will find all manner of reasons why a method won't work, just so you can carry on drinking. Sounds like you're stuck in a particular way of being. It's likely that however you get out of that way of being will involve some discomfort, some sort of challenge to your status quo.