Meetings......and this forum....are how I learned to let go and let God. Took me a while (as Ann said, it does NOT happen overnight), but I'm telling you, I wouldn't go back to that old way of living for anything in the world. And I'm talking about the fear you speak of.
Did I say meetings and more meetings and seeing folks who have something you want? That's what I saw in meetings. I saw CALM mamas who weren't crying or scared to death all the time. And I wanted it. So I went to meetings. I watched what they did and tried some of it. I learned about the program and I started working the 12 steps.
Amazing, just amazing how my life has changed due to all of that.
Oh, and one more thing. Something I heard at a meeting from a wise, precious lady who has over 30 years in Al Anon....
"As long as you drive, they'll ride."
You tired of driving? The sooner you let your son learn to drive the better off you'll both be.
Hugs cause I know how hard it is to give your child the wheel,
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