There is simply no healthy way to live with addiction. We would have been crazy if it hadn't make us sick!
Babs thank you for saying that/posting that. Ive tried so hard in the end/present I lost control of me. I applied my recovery and it came to a point it wasnt enough, all my morals have exploded as if I was a crazy person. Im not crazy I just finally had enough again. Many of you know me from when this thread started more than a year ago. Living with active addiction can drive you to a complete insanity. I love my husband, have had so much hope, yet last night I kissed him gently goodbye at a bus station as I handed him a ticket to go stay with his family in NC. As the bus pulled out the tears stopped flowing, once again I can begin to try to live and let go and pray I dont find myself back in this state again. For so long I hoped prison, jail and rehab stays would change things, chaos always returned.
Sunshine Im wishing you the best and peace