Hi strong willed,
My prayers for you both.I believe you when you say your husbands pain was HUGH today. And I believe him when he says he is sorry and wants to be different. Two months ago, my husbands pain was HUGH also, He was really sorry this time and wanted so badly to do it right for me. To give me everything that i deserved. He was truely telling me his honest truthful feelings. . I believe at the time he really believed it to. But it wasn't long before he couldn't. Once he knew I wasn't going to leave him over this, he no longer had a reason to be any different. He was only trying to be "good" to keep me around, he hadn't gotten to the point where he wanted to change for himself.