Strongwilled,
Before I forget, I wanted to say this: Happy Anniversary. I can tell that you are a strong, hard-working, loyal woman and that you did not enter into this marriage with him lightly. You deserve a huge celebration of love, and faith, and hope. If I could figure out how to paste a picture of an anniversary cake in here, I would. Wait, maybe I can:
(see, I just needed to be strong-willed)
And secondly, my wish is for you to travel and travel until he decides that cocaine can't hold a candle to the joy you bring him, so he will seek a recovery that will last for life.
Good luck on your recovery.
HUgs,
GL