((NGU))
I too suffer from depression, so I understand how you feel. I also felt like putting a gun to my head. The reason I didn't is because I did not want anyone else to win. I had to win. I am on meds for my depression, that is what is best for me. You Love your son, we know that. Please take some time and find someone you can really talk to, a friend, someone from church etc. Go to your doctor. Your body is telling you that you need some rest, take the time for YOU!!!!! You have been to HE** and back with your ex, and you had to do what you did for your son to have a better life. Now take some time for the two of you. If he is in school do something just for you, when he is home do something together, even if it is watching a movie, talk to him. You know all this since you deal with children all the time. I am proud of you and what you have done.
Hugs coming to you