OH MY GOSH ! You are only 22!! WHY, Hon, are you already settling for the dumpster dive of life?
1. LIVING with a boyfriend?
2. He has addiction problems?
3. He's SO much older than you- that indicates HE has other personality problems.
4. He also sounds like an all-around JERK and a mean guy.
PLEASE dear- please RUN. You have no clue what love is. Whatever you are "feeling" for him is not love. Pity, you want to help him like a puppy or something.
I tell you what I told my daughters. YOU deserve a real man. A strong arm to lean on, someone kind. Life is hard enough to get thru without marrying a mean person.
RUN RUN RUN. This guy is poison. WHY do so many women think they can love a guy into something wonderful? You can't change a turkey into a loyal German Shepherd.
Don't settle- you have your entire life ahead of you. Concentrate on bettering yourself right now- go to college, get out there and experience more.