Originally Posted by
Selah 
The last words I heard were "Babe, I am so sorry. I wanted to marry you. I love you so much, I wanted nothing else but to live the rest of my life with you. I'm sorry you don't understand addiction and you're leaving me. I'm so sorry."
All YOUR fault again, huh? He's not doing anything wrong. YOU just don't understand addiction. And if you hadn't insisted on your boundaries, he wouldn't have relapsed. All your fault.
Quack.
Quack.
Quack.
I'm so sorry Selah. You know better than this, right? (assume you do) It's so sad when they show so much promise but it turns out to be just another carefully orchestrated act put on by an addict.
Give yourself time, and rest, and make a plan. Remember that you can take whatever steps you're comfortable with, big or small. Some distance might be good...it doesn't mean you write him off forever, just that you're needing to protect yourself and your own happiness. Little steps.
Hugs,
GL