You did the right thing.
You have every right to feel as you do today. It is hard. So, listen carefully to everything your brain has to say. Let it rant, rave and hurl accusations so that can air it all out. As it is talking to you…just stay centered. Remember to calmly give yourself the reasons again why you have moved on now without him. You will see you had no other choice sweetie – not if you and your brain where to survive.
My advice to you today and for the next week is do yourself a favor, do not get yourself involved in any conversations with anyone that has never dealt with an addict. Make a decision today you will not do anything else regarding him for at least one month. Keep yourself busy today. Do not isolate yourself today. A brain with negative energy likes nothing better then to hold you as its captive audience.
Then let nothing, especially your brain stand in your way from being happier now. Make a comeback. Go to those that have sat on the side line while you have been busy with him and renew those relationships. We all have those friends that suddenly disappeared because we were so busy with our addicts.
(((HUGS)))) The way I see it….You did not leave him… He left you. He left you when he went back to the pills. Remember whatever he decides to do now…you should never just throw your life away. Be happy.