Hey Greet,
You don't have to feel bad about taking medication if you need it. That's the beauty of living in this age. We have cures and helps for different problems.
Do what you feel you need to do.
I don't much care for meds either, in fact I hate anti depressants. But, I have taken them when I needed them. It didn't take more than 3 months to get me straightened out. If I hadn't taken them at that time, I probably would have lost my job for being unable to function.
I take a sleep med, mild, but without it I would NEVER fall asleep.
Here's that big hug you need!!
(((GREETEACHDAY)))