Ahhhh, my friend...
We are all allowed to be weak occasionally. I know what you mean about feeling like a fraud sometimes. I always feel that way when people compliment me about doing well with my grandson. Cause they don't see when I yell at him and make him cry, or snap because he's just getting on my last nerve.
But we just muddle on. Doing the best we can. When I was at my lowest...I looked for your posts like a drowning woman looking for a life raft. You will never know how much you help others.
My friend...here's a shoulder to lean on....let us help carry your burden for awhile, as you've helped all of us!!!
Many Many HUGS sent through cyberspace. I love you and I've never met you!!