((Greet))
Stay on the meds if you feel like you are losing it. I have depression and try to go off the meds and get right back down. I have been told that I will need to be on them for the rest of my life. I don't like it but I don't like how I feel with out them. I too want to cry all the time and I don't want to be around anyone. I still have some down days even on the meds, but maybe one every few months.
I am keeping you in my prayers, please do something just for you, read, take a drive or go someplace and take some pictures.
You can not just "snap out of this" it takes time, and it takes time for the meds to work correctly.
Hugs coming to you