(((Greet)))
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way ... and I do understand. I too have recently come off my anti-d and for some reason, I thought it would be easier. It's been a bit of a bear and I've had days where I've cried if someone looked at me the wrong way and days where I'd like to rip someone's head off. If you're not ready, then that's okay ... it's more important to survive each day and be able to feel joy.
I'm sending you the biggest hug you can imagine Miss Greet and all my love and prayers every day