Wow greet,
Thanks for the honesty! You have been there for so many others; not it's time to let others be there for you. If all you had ever done was come to this site and share your story, that would have been enought to make a huge impact on me and others. But I know that is not all you have ever done. I understand the desire to get off meds, but you have been through a lot. There's nothing shameful about it. Now if you needed meds just so you wouldn't feel bad about not having the right outfit to wear or something silly like that, I would call you a baby. But this thing we are dealing with, this addiction, man it kicks a wallop. Especially to us moms. Be gentle with yourself. You are a work in progress, and by admitting this to others you have helped even more people.
krhea