I find myself in your shoes today, MG. I am sorry for your anxiety. My father is well into the bottle again and is slowly dying of alcohol poisoning. It has happened before. I recognized the symptoms. But this does not help us with the fear. I "KNOW" that my father will die this time. And that knowledge is a cold bedfellow. However, I do know that it is not my fault. Please remember that whatever your son does is his choice. And that God will care for him no matter what.
God bless you for being a loving mother. And remember the serenity prayer.
GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO
ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE,
COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN,
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.
I struggle with this today. I am re-reading every hour. Know that I am praying for you. Please do so for me. We need the prayers today.
Lolly