Guilt and anger over mothers death
My mother was an alcoholic. She never admitted she had a problem with alcohol. We attempted interventions, etc. I am the oldest daughter and feel so guilty about her recent death. She turned onto a freeway exit ramp instead of an outer road and was had a head on collision then was hit by a tractor trailer. Alcohol was likely a factor; we are still waiting on test results. I am new to this board and identify with what I have read about Adult Children.
I feel guilty about my mother's death. I feel like if I would have helped more, been around more, been more supportive of her, less embarrassed by her, this never would have happened. At the same time, part of me knows that this wasn't my fault. How do I soothe my guilty feelings?
My father was also an alcoholic; he died of lung cancer at 59. My mom died at the age of 57. It is so weird to lose both parents so soon.