Ironic how threads come up when we are rethinking things in our lives! Sorry guys especially Rusty I had to bump it back up!
Originally Posted by
Rowan 
I keep avoiding this thread but then it's bumped!
I am single - but content? Hmm, that's a tough one. I've only ever been 'alone' for maybe 6 months. Always had a husband or boyfriend or lover. My last relationship was with someone in AA - we were together 3 years - but, it's become evident that I've got a lot of work to do on myself before I can ever be with someone. How can one give love when one doesn't love oneself? Wow that was a mouthful.
So I'm taking this time to do extra work in recovery, and to build my friendships with other women in recovery, and with my daughter. Some days I'm content, some days I'm lonely. I hope and pray that there is special someone for me - when the time is right.
Wow Row.....you took the words out of my mouth! I came to this revelation that I was happy and loved living life, the only problem is which I unfortunate came upon this just this weekend as the guy who I have been with for close to year now DUMPED me! "He loves me but he says we have come to an impass" POOF....I cried all the way home and came up with exactly as you stated ROW!
it's become evident that I've got a lot of work to do on myself before I can ever be with someone. How can one give love when one doesn't love oneself? Wow that was a mouthful.
I guess I have now come to a new revelation...I'm not ready yet to love myself totally so I sure as heck cannot be ready for a realationship. I do hope that my HP guides me through this to really help me help myself to get to that point in my life someday, where the little girl inside of me will finally grow up. I feel like a little child unable to make a real, substantial decision until I can you guys are stuck with me!
a misfit in the works with a lot more apparently to do! Let the reflecting begin!
An amazing metamorphosis of not being where I want to be yet brings me back to this song-I just pray that I lead myself into the right direction and realize not to get to high in the clouds as everything can tumble in a heart beat if we allow it too! For now I guess I remain single and enjoy it while I grow up!
I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
till the landslide brought me down
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life
Well, Ive been afraid of changing
cause Ive built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too
Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe the landslide will bring it down