Thanks everyone for the encouragement. I need it so much right now. Thank you for all your love and support. I dont think I have ever had a better group of friends. Everyone of you means more to me than you can imagine.
For right now I am going to keep trudging through. I think right now it is the only choice I have. I will keep going to my meetings and I will keep listening and praying. Hopefully HP will send me and AH in the right direction.
Again, thank you all. With BIG LOVE from me to everyone of you!