((((Wendy))))
Sending you hugs and prayers that you find the strength YOU need. You are getting stronger even if you don't feel like it. I know it hurts to feel like even your HP has turned his back on you, but remember he hasn't, he will continue to walk right next to you and at times he will carry you.
I too felt at times that the worse thing to happen to me was meeting my ex, not an addict. But the best thing to come out of it was our two children. Hold your little boy when you need a hug. Kids give the best ones out there, and they really mean it, unlike some adults.
Keep posting here, we all need to vent at times and this is such a safe place to do it.
I am keeping you in my daily prayers. Will add extra prayers that your AH will get the help he needs from the doctors.
More hugs coming to you,