i grew up in a family where we communicated through a lot of non verbal ways so everything was loaded with double meaning. this made me paranoid and judgemental and ultimately, fearful of others intentions and actions. one day, one step at a time i became aware this was not sane or serving me in my life so i took to the steps, the meetings. i focused on myself. esp in step 4. the rage does pass but i found for me it was misdirected rage against members of my family against people who reminded me of them. sometimes it would be just the fact that they were ALSO human...the rage for me i see today as a choice. for me. do i want to drink some poison and hop that someone else feels the burning sting of it? or do i want peace>?