Bjork, that is why I stopped going to meetings the last time I quit drinking. Every time I was asked to say anything I would literally choke up and gag - I wasn't ready to share such personal and deep emotions, so the experience of AA meetings was lost on me. I realize now I should have kept going and at least listened until I felt stronger. I just kept to myself, and for 3 yrs. I managed a very shaky sobriety, but it didn't take! Oddly, now I'm very eager to share how I'm feeling & the conclusions I've come to! Especially if it would ease anyone else's burden. It's so true that your emotions being all over the place is to be expected & at least YOU haven't stopped getting the help you need like I did. Be proud.