With Anna's precious help i don't know what else to say other than: you are much more important to yourself right now..You are what you got to live with..there won't be other chance, don't live your life being treated bellow a queen..ok?..that's the way you should be treated..My mom taught me to treat a woman with respect, if he doesn't know what that is, please don't let him keep destroying you..It's a crime..And you are a child of God, there's nothing wrong with you...You will shine on your own, i am sure..just take that step..