why cant i make it?
i dont get why i am always relapsing. i did over the last few days and i feel terrible about it too. he beat me once again because i went back to him and some people dont believe that i was in a motorcycle accident over the weekend i just need someone i can count on to help me out a bit because i feel so lost and scared. i dont know what i do. i am strong on the surface, but not all the way through so how do i survive am i doomed to be an addict till the day i die? am i going to die of a meth overdose or alcohol??? i am so scared, what do i do?? i need advice. i have tried to call my sponser but i cant reach her so i called a counselor i know well and she is going to call me back. gosh i feel so bad about that and i cant look away because it is right there...HELP!!!!