thanks for the support you guys, it really helps since I am sure that you guys know that we don't get too much support for A's...cause it is all about them. I am having a very hard time though when he is off from work, his drinking has really escalated over the last couple of weeks...seems to drink pass out, get up and drink again...it is causing me to lose my patience and lash out at him...WHY CAN'T HE JUST SEE what it is doing to everyone else and himself. I don't like myself when I get that way, feels somehow dirty and yucky...but at the same time the frustration level is pretty high right now...I wish I would have a husband that I could depend upon, trust, and lean on in times like these...but I don't. Right now I really just want out of this marriage....I need to keep pushing ahead..