Yes, I know exactly how you feel...I quit so many times, I lost count. I was so disgusted with myself I didn't even want to be alive sometimes. I suppose this last time quitting I was just ready...really ready. I was so tired , I mean SOOOO tired, I just gave up....I couldn't do it anymore...so I admitted I was powerless and asked for help.....here is the tricky part....I then LET someone help me!!! You will be okay...this disease is Cunning, Baffling and Powerful....you just need to be more so.
Today, forgive yourself, and start over...we are here for you.
Cathy