((Heather)), it's been 8 weeks for me too, it's not a long time. i still cry and have bad days. I have contact with mine, which is ok i seem to be able to cope with it, he messes up still, which proves to me that ive done the right thing. Each Sunday he tells me he's going to sort himself out by thursday he's drinking like no tomorrow. I have no expectations of him any longer I know what he will do next before he does.
I no longer have the pain of missing him, and no longer have dreams of a happy ever ending, instead of wondering what he is doing, i can ring him and no exactly what he is doing and beleive me Heather he is wallowing in pity when sober and acting like a poo when drunk. I dont recomend having contact, i am using him to make me feel better, so im delaying the no contact till im ready, thats the way I deal with it, it works for ME.
It seems to me that the unknown is getting to you Heather as it did me, but in time it will get better for you and me.
Take care sweetie
Mair xxx