You're a wonderful mom and a strong woman. Wow!!!! Gosh, I know how hard it is...I promise that it WILL get easier with time if you are both protective and tender with yourself.
Congratulations for doing what was right -- and for recognizing the "promise you the moon" for what it is.....empty promises from an addict who's desperate to have his enabler back so he doesn't have to seek recovery. They'll get real creative with those promises...addicts are very resourceful manipulators...take care.
Hugs, prayers, wisdom and strength to you, your kids, and your AH.
GL